Mintfreshness

[R.A.T.M.]

Hi, my name is Leo Barros. I used to play a silly game under the name Gambit19. 2 years ago, a young girl with whom I’d hang out on forums and in game asked me if I wanted to create a forum to protest against some stuff going on at Suba Forum. Then, it all began. A tight bond between a few random PT players suddenly formed.

Mariana Elisa Fustet was an angel that came into my life. I was buried deep in a hole when I met her. Then it all changed: talking to her made my day better. It gave me strength, it gave me will, it gave me hope that I’d become a better man. She just emanated light wherever she went. I always told her she guided me through my worst days and I’ll be forever grateful. Our time was not easy, as I in all my flaws, always tried pushing her away, deliberately or not. When she thought I was mad at her, I said: “never ever doubt for one second how much you mean to me.”

I am a native of Rio de Janeiro. She just loved samba and Carnaval. The click was only natural. She’d listen to me passionately talk about it and I will never know if she really liked hearing me go ON and ON because that’s how she was: Always wanted to make me feel better, putting herself second. I’d like to say I also gave her some good advice, but, though I did, it never made the same impact as what she did to me. We had plans of her coming here, but unfortunately someone upstairs didn’t want it.

I’ve made her laugh, I’ve made her cry, and I’ve made her feel guilty. Yep, that sums up me, and the fact she never for one second got mad at me, sums up HER. She told me her fears, her crazy theories and she knew all contained in my psyche. When she broke up with her ex-boyfriend, I didn’t have to say a word. I just extended her a (virtual) hug and said she didn’t have to say another word, if necessary. Elisa, as always, apologized for her typos because she was typing while crying. That was the only time before May 26th that I’ve felt absolutely powerless.

I’d nag about her PT addiction and she’d worry about my drinking. That was our silly lil’ dynamic. I remember making her cry out of joy also (hey, I’m not all bad) by saying ‘Thank you for being you.’

This forum is now dedicated to her and her memory. Her dreams have been put off, but the ones you’ve told me I promise to fulfill. My football team’s anthem has a saying that translates roughly as “I’d have a profound disgust without YOU in the world.” That pretty much sums it up for me.
Elisa, you’ve shown me what unconditional love is. Thank you for everything. The world is darker without your light and God clearly missed His angel. You’ll forever be in my heart. You always tried making me feel accepted and I never gave you credit. I will forever be waiting for that hug you promised, when we meet at last.
Love, leo leo.






"Nothing Else Matters"

So close no matter how far
Couldn't be much more from the heart
Forever trusting who we are
And nothing else matters

Never opened myself this way
Life is ours, we live it our way
All these words I don't just say
And nothing else matters

Trust I seek and I find in you
Every day for us something new
Open mind for a different view
And nothing else matters

Never cared for what they do
Never cared for what they know
But I know

So close no matter how far
Couldn't be much more from the heart
Forever trusting who we are
And nothing else matters

Never cared for what they do
Never cared for what they know
But I know

Never opened myself this way
Life is ours, we live it our way
All these words I don't just say
And nothing else matters

Trust I seek and I find in you
Every day for us something new
Open mind for a different view
And nothing else matters

Never cared for what they say
Never cared for games they play
Never cared for what they do
Never cared for what they know
And I know

So close no matter how far
Couldn't be much more from the heart
Forever trusting who we are
No nothing else matters

[ieatnoodles]

Hello, this is Gustavo, also known as Gustavoolp on the Priston Tale forum. Well it's still too hard to believe it and we're still in shock, the loss is immeasurable. That little girl had a bright future waiting for her, she was so smart, briliant, helpful, she was one of my best friends.
I first met her on Pt, and that's where we formed our gang, not only to flame/protest against suba but also to retrieve the freedom that not longer habited pt forum. As the time passed, we became even closer and our relationship grew and got each time stronger. We had lots of fun together, playing pt and chatting A LOT .. She also helped me become a better person and helped me with my relationships and life choices.. Despite being so young, she had the mentality of a grown up person, she was always thinking forward.
She was THAT special, and I smile when remembering our everyday moments, the way she talked, the way she reacted to the shits I always said.
Dear Elisa, you'll stay on my mind forever, I'll never forget you and all the good times we spent together.
Love and miss you little girl

[darkbattousai]

Aw Elisa, i still can't believe that you're really gone, i can't even count how many times i just showed up in game just to chat with you, you are a amazing person, i never met no one with your age with such potential, love and kindness with everyone.

i couldn't sleep last night, if i'm feeling like that i imagine how devasted its your family right now, especially your lovely sister angela, who once you said you would introduce her to my lil brother, i remember everything, ALL of our chats during the night play on awell, and i'll never forget our moments togheter, i apologize if i was being a dick when i said those jokes about JB, you know i was just playing around, i know that this is impossible, but i really wish i could see you one last time, i hope you are in a better place than here, and that your BF is taking care of you.

Wherever you are i just want you to know that i love you, and all your friends loves you too, i'll keep you warm forever in my heart.

[twisotte]

Trisotte here.
(I lost my other account here and made a new one)

I feel you guys.
I start knowing her after underground.
I was so surprised by how smart she was for her age.
She wanted to be an adult so mad, and hated when we treated her like a child. It was our way to care about her maybe?
I just wanted her to enjoy life as she was young, as to me, she would have so much time to enjoy the life as an grown-up woman.
How wrong I was thinking that.... I would have never expected that she would quit us so early... and so young...
This is really a tragedy to all of the people who knew her, and knew how adorable she is.

No matter how much I'll write about her, it will never be enough to describe how amazing she was.
And my feelings are so mixed up after this tragedy that I don't have much words to describe in what state I am right now.

I will never forget you my lil' Elisa.

[R.A.T.M.]

Thanks for contributing, guys, means a lot. I plan on sending it to her family one day.
Never in a million years I thought I'd lose her like this. I always thought she'd get bored of me and we'd simply lose touch as she was destined for success.

When we all hung out on MSN (6 of us from Underground), she always said I was the glue that held us 6 close. Never was she so wrong. She was and still is the heart and soul of this.

When she fought with her father after London, her boyfriend offered running away together when they were 18. In a way, they did.

"De tudo ao meu amor serei atento
Antes, e com tal zelo, e sempre, e tanto
Que mesmo em face do maior encanto
Dele se encante mais meu pensamento.

Quero vivê-lo em cada vão momento
E em seu louvor hei de espalhar meu canto
E rir meu riso e derramar meu pranto
Ao seu pesar ou seu contentamento

E assim, quando mais tarde me procure
Quem sabe a morte, angústia de quem vive
Quem sabe a solidão, fim de quem ama

Eu possa me dizer do amor (que tive):
Que não seja imortal, posto que é chama
Mas que seja infinito enquanto dure." Vinícius de Moraes.

May it be eternal/infinite while it lasts.

[DudeWithASombrero]

Hi, I'm Noud, aka Knommelkop.

I never thought I could care this much about someone I never even met...
I met her at Suba forum, where we instantly became friends, and she later convinced me to start a char at Awell. For which I'm her very thankful, because there I became friends with some of the greatest people. She was one of the reasons why I played pt for another year or two even though I didn't like the game itself anymore. At all.

Her cute way of talking and trolling has always made me smile. Or the way she always gave me unsolicited advice about girls. Elisa really is one of the sweetest people I knew. Sure we've had fights, about silly stuff such as women only taxis, pt and of course Justin Bieber, and she has droven me crazy sometimes, but I've never felt anger for her, and always wanted to talk to her again.
What I really admire about her is that she never cared about what others thought of her and how confindent she was.
Beside grief I can't help feeling a little bit guilty.. I never got to tell her I never meant to hurt her with my jokes. And I hope, despite I never told you, you realised how much you meant to me.

Last summer, when she was in Londen, she actually wanted to come to Amsterdam for a few days. There we would trade tequila for a pair of Dutch wooden shoes, which she wanted so badly despite me telling her constantly there is nothing comfortable about them. Unfortunately these plans were cancelled, for which reason I've trolled her a lot, yet still she always remained happy and sweet.

Elisa, you always wanted me catch me crying one day. You asked whether I cried when I left my family and friends to travel, or when I left everyone in Sydney and again when I came back home. never with succes. But, my dear Elisa, last monday - after a sunday of unbelief, denial and shock - you finally succeeded. And now when I'm typing this, while listening to our song I'm having teary eyes again.

It's not even a week ago since you talked to me how excited you were about tier 5 , and especially how cute your little fat pet bear was. I still can't believe you're gone.. I'll never forget you .
Love, Noud Noud.

[Denise Larara]

Hola, soy Denise "Larara" de Argentina. Me acuerdo el dia que conosí a Elisa, Tigerlily, fue hace un año. Yo la veía en el juego y pensaba "wow esa chica, es super popular por aca" y me daba un poco de envidia. Pero al tiempo empezamos a hablar y me di cuenta que esa chica era la clase de amiga que yo quería tener. Pues lo conseguí, nos hicimos grandes amigas. Ella siempre escuchaba mis problemas y me aconsejaba positivamente, siempre mirando con buena cara a la vida. Le agarre confianza en muy poco tiempo. Tambien me contaba sus problemas y yo trataba de ayudarla con lo que fuera.

Poco tiempo despues ella me invitó a ser parte de uno de sus sueños, ser administradora de una pagina junto con ella y otros amigos mas. Ella fue la creadora de esa pagina, me enseño todo lo que hoy se. Le encantaba ayudar a las personas, por mas de que esas personas a veces fueran cansadoras, ella seguia ayudandolas sin importar nada. Era algo admirable que yo no podia hacer. Aunque ella no lo halla sabido tambien me enseño a ser mejor persona. A darme cuenta que habian cosas mas importantes en la vida. A no mirar el pasado y vivir el presente. Mejoré mucho mi ingles con ella :D . Siempre decia que habia que ser pacientes.

Era una persona que tenia todo siempre planificado perfecto, siempre tenia grandes ideas, grandes planes para TODO ! Eso era algo asombroso en serio >.< . Realmente estoy muy orgullosa de ella. Mejor amiga seria imposible de encontrar.
Yo le decia que algun dia iba a ir a Mexico a visitarla, ella me dijo que me iba a llevar a patinar y a muchos lugares bonitos. Decia que me iba a mantener super entretenida. Eso ya no va a poder ser, pero algun dia la voy a volver a ver =) .
Siempre le daba un poco de verguenza hablar porque ella pensaba que nos ibamos a reir de su voz o algo asi, por eso nos hablaba poco. Pero esa voz era tan especial, tan unica !
Nunca me voy a olvidar de sus maldades (claro mas que maldades eran juegos), y como me enseño a ser mala pero con estilo jajaja. Fue algo muy lindo =). Ahora yo estoy continuando su sueño de una pagina donde ayudemos latinos para el priston tale.

Era una luz que siempre mantenía unidos a todos y trataba de que las cosas fueran bien, solucionando problemas ajenos.

Por eso cada vez que recuerde a Tiger, lo voy a hacer con una sonrisa. Pensando que ahi esta mi amiga, cuidando a su familia y amigos desde su lugar. Ahora tiene esa nueva mision. Siempre va a quedar dentro mio, ese nombre y esos actos nunca me los voy a olvidar. La extraño y la voy a extrañar toda mi vida pero pienso que todavia esta con nosotros, ella se fue de cuerpo pero no de alma =) . Me gusta pensar que ella lee todo esto, que nos mira y nos sonrie por eso nosotros tambien tenemos que devolverle esa sonrisa. No estar tristes porque por mas lejos que estemos nos vamos a seguir amando, asi pasen 100 años hasta volver a verla, y escucharla.
Ella ya era un angel en vida, solo le faltaban las alas =) .

Te quiero mucho amiga ! Nunca te voy a olvidar.
PowerLily y SuperLara por siempre <3

[Markus]

I never got to really know her, but what happened to her affected me more deeply than I thought it would, especially hearing her voice made her feel more *alive*, and the loss worse. I just stumbled upon her atalanta guide, and that reminded me of these forums. Anyway, just wanted to say here as well, I couldn't imagine losing someone as close as she was to many of you, and it really breaks my heart to see such a young life end so prematurely.

[atong]

In the arms of angels, flying always from this land,
You are now in the god's hand.
Rest in peace young lovely one.

[R.A.T.M.]

Finally got the tickets to Mexico's game @ Maracanã, the game I'm going just because of her. The seat's COINCIDENTALLY L19.

[deisiinha]

Olá meu nome é Deise Keli!
Não conhecia Elisa como a maioria de vocês, mas tive a oportunidade de conhecê-la através do meu namorado Gustavo...
Ela sempre muito divertida, alegre, uma garota especial sem dúvidas!
Admirava bastante ela, ela me transmitia muita alegria sempre, conversamos algumas vezes...
Quero aqui deixar meus sentimentos a família dela!
Estou triste com tudo, mas tudo tem seu propósito!
Descanse em paz!
Beijos *--*